Confessions of an Extrovert

Us extroverts naturally seek out others, desiring to connect. We don't relish being alone. When I was young (some of you knew me then) I avoided aloneness at all costs. Truely, I'd have rather done devotions with others than by myself. Us extroverts are energized around people, but in the absense of others our energy is drained. When alone, with my energies waning, I get anxious, uneasy, unsettled. Not a fear of being alone, just a great distaste for it. In my youth this unsettling sent me into efforts to alleviate the feeling, and I exerted great amounts of emotional energy in efforts to reconnect with others.

Now that I'm older, when alone and feeling unsettled, I find myself wanting to push into the feeling further; to be more alone and isolated so I can hear the voice of God. I now welcome the unsettledness, and rather than become anxious, I recognize a call to come away with the Savior.

I am hearing that call now, and am planning a driving trip that will take me away from the din of the nation's 4th largest city, and to isolation in a remote place on the Texas coast where the only sounds will be water, wind, an occasional seagull, and the still, small voice of the Spirit of God. I can't wait!